Sunday, December 12, 2010

Dreads and Skinheads

In real life, skinheads are never this hot. Just f.y.i.
French Celia calls just as I emerge from the metro at Paseo de Gracia, where we're to meet then transfer to another line that will take us to Barcelona's 2nd Annual Dancehall Queen Contest. "Wait for me at the yellow line, I'm coming down now," she says. I hear a gaggle of rough, liquored up male voices as I walk through the tunnel, towards the platform. I'm posted up against the wall nearest the platform entrance, listening for the voices to pass. I expect a group of drunk young laddish Spaniards. But these are skinheads. Black lace boots. Confederate flags patched to their black nylon jackets. Bald heads. Skinheads. They pass and don't seem to notice me. French Celia (black like me) is close behind them. So is our train. Though they are scrawny and unimpressive as far as skinheads go, there's no measuring rage and stupidity.

"Let's go in the other door. I think they're skinheads," I tell Celia.

We make it to the second door down just as it's closing and stand facing them. The metro's full of Friday night partygoers. One skinhead, the one with the beer, walks around two groups of people (Spaniards always travel in packs, "like antelope" according to Celia) and stands where we can see him. He glares at us. Spits on the metro floor.

"Okay. Let's walk back a bit more, shall we?"

We're about to move when two 6 foot plus Africans with dreadlocks enter the train. We stay where we are, sat comfortably, glancing towards our hateful friends. Smiling at the symmetry. "Yeah, spit now motherfuckers." They can't hear me. We're now so relaxed the skinheads exit without us noticing.

The brothers, however, get off the train when we do and are standing on the corner, lighting up when we get out onto the street. They're headed to the Dancehall Queen contest, too. "Are you Americans?", they ask. Roll call.
"New York," I say.
"Paris," Celia follows.
One immediately starts chatting her up in French. The other dips low to speak closer to my ear. He's kind of cute.
"I am trying to learn English now, because I'm a musician in Manresa. We talk to a lot of English people."
"Cool. Where are you from?"
"Senegal. Do you know Senegal?"
"Are you asking if I know that Senegal exists?"
"Yes, I think maybe you don't know Senegal."
I stop walking. "Seriously?" Celia turns around. "I know, honey," she says. "Breathe." I start walking again. He starts talking again.
"And you? Where are you from?"
"New York."
"Yes, but your family?"
"Guyana. South America."
"But your grandparents?"
"South America."
"But...don't you know your history?"
History? Protection is at the heart of the origins of the state. And it always comes at a price.

12 comments:

Jannelle said...

That experience sounds very frightening! I'm glad that the situation did not escalate! I hope no one reads this and says "see, black women shouldn't travel." The same thing could have happen in the states.

currentsbetweenshores.blogspot.com said...

Love the tension! Sorry, I know it was an experience but I got so into it I was reading it like literature.

Yes, glad that you were "rescued" by the dawn of the dreads. . .

Btw, how common are these kinds of skinheads in Spain?

This Time Now said...

I love how God just protects!
Anyhoo, I HATE THAT QUESTION, you know the "yeah, but where are you really from? your parents? etc?" Um, I'm from Virginia which is in the United States which makes me American. Get it? Got it? Good. NEXT! OUF!

ieishah said...

Jannelle, people always like to make fantasies or nightmares of things, instead of just taking experiences are they are, which is neither. I cant control people's negativity. It happened to me, and I'm still here. Doing my thing. If someone takes from this story that black women shouldn't travel, they prolly didn't belong anywhere near an airport in the first place.

Rose Anne, you were "reading it like literature"? Well, damn! That's the best compliment anyone's ever given my writing.

I actually had never seen skinheads in Spain before. That was the first time. Hopefully the last.

Hey Felicia! Girl, on one hand, I would normally rather be strung up by my fingernails than suffer questioning about where "I'm really from". Ugh! On the other hand, like way you put it, "God protects". Indeed, sis.

Anonymous said...

Hello there lady... I never gave much thought to the question of my personal history but I am finding it more annoying these days when people ask...but where are your grandparents from...and I say American...well, what about their parents...and I say America... We are some 6 generations deep in America...

Em.

Anonymous said...

i get asked all the time where i'm really from or where my family is from and it's quite annoying when they think they know more about my family history than i do
it's the same w/ my white friend though. europeans ask where her fam is from and she says america. then they ask from which european country and she names off a bunch of different ones and they're like wtf lol that's how you know if someone is american is if they clai to be irish/italian/scottish/german/french etc. lol

Guyana-Gyal said...

Speaking of origins, most people here have such mixed ancestry. A friend of mine, dark-brown with very fine, long dreadlocks, told me she also has a Jewish ancestor.

Almost everybody here has some Chinese / English / Portuguese / Indian grandmother or grandfather or great-grand. Some interesting stories come out when we talk.

Anonymous said...

@Ieishah: I don't think even the guy knows where his great-great-great grandparents are exactly from.

@Guyana-Gyal: I agree... Some of the most interesting conversations I have had with people in the U.S. starts with me asking them where they or their folks are from ... It has always been a pleasure listening to the stories. On some rare occasions, I have been surprised by some who traced their roots in West Africa.

@anonymous 2:27pm: It is interesting that you said "it's quite annoying when they think they know more about my family history than i do..." Until I read that, I did not quite understand why it was annoying.

Mi

ieishah said...

"We are 6 generations deep in America"
Em, that is what I'm talking about. Some simple math and basic knowledge of world history should tell people this, but somehow *we* get people saying *we* don't understand our history. SMH.

Anonymous, there is nothing worse than someone who says, "I'm a mutt! I'm Italian/Irish/French and German!" Um, no you're not. I'm prolly culturally more French than most Americans who say they're French.

GG, having said the above, i've got an Irish ancestor on my dad's side, but I've also got the prototypical Irish surname to prove it, as well as a very tall very yellow daddy. My maternal grandmother's first husband was Chinese, which means my cousins get approached by lost Asians and Latinos in airports in all kinds of strange languages. However, this doesn't mean that *I* am any of those things. Culturally, I am Guyanese American. I'd never say I'm Irish....

Mi, you said, "I don't even think the guy knows where his great great grandparents are from"

Girl, EXACTLY!!! Especially before Europe carved up Africa into neat little countries, there was probably so much movement, intermarriage, migration, that they'd need to research and do testing to know exactly where their families were from so far back. Its like even this history, the history of how Africa itself essentially created in it's present form but a group of European men sitting around a table, has been forgotten.

Anonymous said...

Not all skinheads are racists, there is a difference in the punk scene, SHARPS AND TRADS. SHARPS are skinheads against racial prejudice.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PFxhGyfnhuE A little education.

The Irony Of Cicero said...

I wasn't trying to be snarky, I read your blog all the time and really it's kept my dreams of traveling abroad alive. I'm African American and I have many skinhead friends only sharps of course. Who love dance hall ect.

Sean Sakamoto said...

That "where are you really from" is annoying for sure. It's a no win situation. I've told Germans that my grandparents were German, and they are always very quick to point out that I am not, in fact, German, I am American, as if I were some kind of pretender to the throne.

Also, Confederate flags in Spain. WTF.